I feel like I need to address certain problems.

I am not perfect and I have never claimed to be. I’ve been through shit and I’ve put others through shit, I know that is not the way to go, I am not proud of it at all. Despite this, I try my absolute best to seek forgiveness for the things I have done. 

Look, I’ve cheated on people, both intentionally and unintentionally played around with people’s feelings and messed with their heads. I sent my own sister into Accident and Emergency because we had an argument and I ended up punching her and strangling her against her bedroom wall. I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t. I’ve wished death on my own parents. I’ve physically hurt people. Punched them. Kicked them. Told them that if they were to die I’d be happy and I’d spit on their graves. I’ve cut myself, wishing that it was someone else’s skin I was tearing into.

I’m not proud at all.

I’ve fucked up but I am trying. I really am and if you, reader, want to support me in trying to… I don’t know, defeat my own demons and become a better person then I am extremely appreciative and I promise I will do my absolute best in returning the favour.

If, however, you are going to sit back and judge me based on the mistakes I have made and the failings of my life then maybe you should take a look at yourself and stay within the confines of your own narrow mind and stay the fuck away from me.

I’m so done with negativity and bullshit and I really feel sorry for you if you are not mature enough to leave that mindset behind.